Yet another post without pictures. At this point, it's actually less about showing you all my massive girth and more about being too lazy to walk into the bathroom, stand in front of the mirror, take a picture and then download it that actually prevents me from posting a picture.
I hope my interesting, informative and possibly witty thoughts keep you intrigued enough to finish this blog post. Here are a list of a few things that have been on my mind:
Random Thought #1 - My Induction:Love the idea for planning purposes but hate it because I'll be strapped to an IV and will probably have much more painful contractions. I was hoping to have a non-medicated birth this time around, although I swore I would never try that again. You see, when I was in labor with Grace it took FOREVER and finally after 21 hours without drugs, I got an epidural. Directly following the epidural I was ready to smack myself for not getting one sooner. I mean, what was the point of 'holding out' for 21 hours just to have an epidural for a few more hours before the pushing began? Totally pointless. I vowed to order an epidural and a meal right after checking into the hospital for the next delivery. My feelings have changed. Maybe I'm crazy?! Who knows. I pushed for such a long time with Grace and felt so clumsy because I couldn't really feel much. I think it might have gone faster without the epidural. So, this time if I have a fast labor and can make it to 10cm in a reasonable amount of time, I'd like to do the whole thing without drugs to help speed up the process. We shall see.
Random Thought #2 - TVNow, I'm not a huge tv watcher or lover, but I do enjoy unwinding at the end of the day to an hour or so of good shows. Is it just me or does the Fall Season Lineup seem to start later and later every year? Seriously! These actors and studios make a boat load of $. Why do they get the same holiday vacation as kids and school teachers? Hello! One of the major perks to becoming a teacher is understanding the ratio of pay:holidays. In other words, low pay = lots of days off. I don't think it's rocket science. So why do actors who have high pay = lots of days off? I don't care if they work long hours. Welcome to the real world and please consider working year round like the rest of us. I think America is actually getting dumber by watching the summer reality shows.
Random Thought #3 - Chocolate Chip Mint Ice creamReally, is there anything better? I haven't craved ice cream at all this pregnancy until today. I had a craving that could only be satisifed by Chocolate Chip Mint ice cream. Oh, and make that Umpqua Dairy Choc Chip Mint. I need to stick by my Roseburg roots. I picked up a 1/2 gallon on the way home from story hour at the library with Grace and have thus far enjoyed 2 bowls while she naps. I think the only thing that might be better than this is finishing up my ice cream afternoon with a sample of Espresso Madness, my other Umpqua Dairy fav. I actually haven't gained weight for the past 3 weeks and lost a pound this past week. Instead of starting off my post-partum slightly thinner than I originally expected, I'd rather treat my pregnant, aching body to a vat of ice cream. I think it makes total sense.
Random Thought #4 - I miss my house cleanerDear Charlotte,
It's been almost 2 years since we said our goodbye's. I think of you almost every day and miss you terribly. If I ever win the lottery, you will likely be the first person I call :-)
Random Thought #5 - I never thought I'd say this, but I don't miss working AT ALLBecoming a stay at home mom was THE HARDEST transition I've ever had. It was a real loss of identity and appreciation for me. I think being a recruiter for one of the biggest names out there really had something to do with it. Candidates loved getting calls from me. They thanked me regularly and were so appreciative. Hiring managers were also happy to have a great partner in staffing their teams, etc.
Cut to being at home, not talking to an adult all day long and having a baby who you sacrifice everything for and never says thank you. It was SO hard. I had this horrible internal struggle of 1) being too much of a control freak to ever let anyone care for my baby and 2) wanting nothing more than to not have to care for my baby every waking hour of every day.
Now, I couldn't imagine life any other way. I don't miss getting up and going to work at all. Because, at the end of the day, work is so secondary to my family. We have been lucky enough to be able to make the financial decision for me to stay home with out kids and haven't ever looked back. I couldn't imagine having to try to be an All Star mom and employee. I just don't think I could personally do it. I'll stick to attempting to be an All Star mom. I'll let you know in 18 years how that turned out :-)
Now off to the Espresso Madness ice cream. I can hear it calling my name from inside the freezer.